up against the wall

I often ask myself if it's all worth it. I spend all of my time studying, trying so hard to earn good grades so that I can maintain my GPA and graduate from my program. I am constantly stressed to get things done on time, and often feel that I do not obtain a deserving mark for my work. I wonder why it is so important to memorize the time period and artist of renaissance paintings when I am enrolled in an architecture course, and get annoyed when students cram for exams the night before while I start weeks in advance. What's worse is that they usually get better marks than I do.

What am I doing this for? To graduate, wait 6 years to obtain my Architecture Liscence, and then become a workaholic? The architecture field is so time-consuming. Do I really want to be working all the time, getting home late and catching up on paper work on the weekends? What about a family- how will I care for them with a job that constantly demands my attention? Would I give up my job to start a family? I would certaintly want to, but then what would all of these years of stressing be for? All of these questions have led me to ask myself- is it all worth it?

This is exactly what I have been thinking of the past few months. I am so sick of working my ass off, and getting so little in return. Half of the time the professors aren't happy enough with the work that students submit, and yet they do nothing to help us improve. It's extremely frustrating. I realize that the time that I do work, I can obtain an income to provide for myself and my family, but does it require this much stress and time in order to get there?

I'm finally on school break (only for a week). I plan on doing little work and taking some time to relax. I found a mystery cd in my closet today- I have no idea who burnt it for me, but it was really good. A song that I especially loved was Up Against the Wall by Peter Bjorn & John. You have probably heard the song Young Folks by this band, which I am a little sick of but nonetheless liked when it first came out. Anyway, this song is really great, so give it a listen and please forgive me for this long post. It felt good to let it out.
http://hypem.com/search/peter+bjorn++john+up+against+the+wall/1/?rec_ref=peter+bjorn++john

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